My life keeps making me ask just what the hell happened and how did I end up in... this. Whatever "this" is, anyway. But I think I'll just roll with it.

Unrelated to the first paragraph: I didn't in fact ever write in my journal when I got a new job last November. Well. Same library, but main branch. I have a permanent job as a library clerk, dealing with music, movies, games, some YA things, social media, and... well, lots of stuff. Officially I'm the music department clerk. Did I mention it's permanent? (For the non-Finns, it's... kind of like tenure, I guess. I'm employed until explicitly fired for a very good reason, and in this line of work, that's not really likely.)

Other things I'm doing: being chair of the local small anime club, being obsessed with The Vampire Diaries tv show, awaiting Guild Wars 2 release like a five-year-old awaits christmas, and co-habiting with two cats instead of just one. I've also been getting into makeup and stuff, which might amuse people who knew me ten years ago.

Tämä laulu ei kerro minusta. Se kertoo jostakusta toisesta.


Minä saavun niin
Matalalla että
Katkenneet oksat voivat koskettaa minua
Miten tuntuukaan tää niin
Tunteettoman ei-miltään
Kun mun henkilökohtainen maailmani loppuu
Mitä odotimmekaan me huomiselta?
Mitä sen kuormaan lastattiin?
Karu totuus on kaivautunut sen alta
Vaikka sitä kauan peiteltiin
Ja sitä niin hävettiin

Pudota, pelasta
Molempien takia
Pohjakosketus suuntamme näyttää
Suolaa ja tomua
Kuolevaa valoa
Meidän silmien kuoppia täyttää
Sylje sinun kapinasi
Vasten mun kasvojani

Minä tahdon vielä
Kerran näyttää sen haavan
Jonka sä unohdit jo niin pitkän aikaa sitten
En enää muista kuinka tähän ollaankaan luisuttu
Mut en oo unohtanut mitä me joskus oltiin
Mä en osaa sitä paremminkaan kertoo
Mutta lukenut oon hetken tulleen
Meidän on vaihdettava kiilamme suuntaa
Jos me haluamme vielä hengittää
Vielä niin hengittää

Pudota, pelasta
Molempien takia
Pohjakosketus suuntamme näyttää
Suolaa ja tomua
Kuolevaa valoa
Meidän silmien kuoppia täyttää
Sylje sinun uhkauksesi
Vasten mun kasvojani

Pudota, pelasta
Molempien takia
Pohjakosketus suuntamme näyttää
Suolaa ja tomua
Kuolevaa valoa
Meidän silmien kuoppia täyttää
Sylje sun vastalauseesi
Vasten mun kasvojani

Back in Finland after an uh, interestingly timed trip to Sweden to see Stockholm Ice. Those who need to spew vitriol at me may start now. I'd rather you yell at me than not talk at all.

Posted via m.livejournal.com.

The browser alphabet meme. Put each letter into your browser, see what pops up for each letter. Not allowed to take out anything embarrassing or naughty but you are allowed to take out super private things that would name and shame someone else.

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No, I don't really write much anymore. I mainly use my LJ account for commenting and reading. But occasionally stuff happens. Now that it's all signed and sure I feel comfortable putting it here too.

In two weeks time I'm quitting my game store job and moving to Kouvola (about an hour away) to be a library clerk at a smaller branch library, doing the job I'm actually trained for and want to do for the foreseeable future. (I have a library paraprofessional's education, which is a two-year vocational qualification.) It's not a permanent position, yet, but at least until Christmas 2011, full-time. I'll be responsible for most of the school-aged kids/youth stuff, which is a bit hilarious, since I never wanted to be a children's librarian... but, see icon. I will endeavor to incorporate as much gaming, technology, Internet, and other "modern media" in this as possible.

So, yeah. The branch is Myllykoski, in case someone cares. Five or six staff, mostly female, I will be junior to all of them by 10-30 years. :p Next week I'm going shopping for a car, which I can now both justify and afford - I could probably do without, but it will make my life a lot easier. Moving in about three weeks, so I'm just going to do a longer commute for that first week. And yes, my sister is moving with me.

As for more immediate events, this weekend is Ropecon and I will be there the entire weekend. You can find me selling and checking tickets at the main doors very, very early both mornings. Before I can go to Con, sadly, I have a dentist's appointment - a filling decided to come loose last night. Here's hoping they don't decide to pull two teeth this time. >_< Seriously, if I ever have some 10k to spend from... winning the lottery or something, I'm going to look into getting permanent, implanted dentures. I hate my teeth, they're crooked and weak, and I'm sick of worrying about infections that can lead to endocarditis.

Hello darlings. We came back from Sweden earlier today! It was a fabulous trip, completely worth it, the show was awesome, we met some skaters, got some autographs, I HUGGED STÉPHANE LAMBIEL...

If you are not allergic to ONTD communities, ALLCAPS and a lot of squeeing, you can find the skating-related parts of the trip documented here and here. I'll try to update about the other bits - of which there aren't many - later, maybe tomorrow. I picked up an awesomely cute and squishy Barbapapa plushie among other things.

HI EVERYONE.

YOU WILL BE DREAM-FREE UNTIL SUNDAY.

Good god ONTD_s is rubbing off on me. Let's try without quite THAT many caps.

I'm going to Stockholm for Easter, with my sister, to see the Stockholm Ice skating show on Friday. We're leaving in a few hours and won't be back until Sunday noon-ish. I will be tweeting from the trip (@anotherdream) but note that I cannot receive tweets on my phone. I can probably read some twitter and email on the trip but in general, expect NOT to see me until Sunday. My phone is fully functional and all, SMSes are welcome. (PONIES, you can ask Sabrina or dom for my number. AND I EXPECT YOU TO TEXT ME IF SOMETHING BIG HAPPENS RE: SKATING.)

I may in fact be MEETING Evgeni Plushenko and Stéphane Lambiel if this autograph session works out OH MY GOD I WILL DIE



This is how much we love Stéphane Lambiel.

TA-TA GUISE.

This has been such a shit day.

Last night, I suddenly felt that there was something off with one of my teeth, like it was missing a neat piece. Okay, fine, I hate dentists but when there's a piece of my tooth missing, I can't really avoid going. I assumed I had a filling come loose and went in to get it fixed early this afternoon.

...except, it may not have been a filling in the first place, but instead the tooth just randomly decided to cave in. It was my last upper molar on the right, and apparently the wisdom tooth next to it was also infected. GREAT. So they were just gonna give me a root canal then and there and remove the wisdom tooth.

Just, you can't do that with me. I have a minor heart condition and I'm very susceptible to bacterial infections. Or well, not susceptible, just if bad bacteria from the mouth get into my bloodstream the results could be really, really bad (sepsis, endocarditis, DEATH). I have to take 2-3 grams of antibiotics at least an hour before any tooth operations that involve blood. This usually saves me from any nasty surprise operations.

This time, unfortunately, the dentist said they really have to do it today period, so just handed me antibiotics and told me to come back in an hour. I spent an hour getting panicky about it (thank you so much, tanssija, for support) but I didn't really have a choice. Went back in, and the dentist had decided that there's no point doing a root canal because it will likely fail anyway, so they'll just take out both problem teeth.

In the end, it actually wasn't that bad. I've had some dozen teeth removed when I was a kid, and I had braces two separate times. It's only made me hate dentists. >.> This one, however, actually believed me when I explained I have VERY sensitive teeth and a great tolerance for the most commonly used local anaesthetic. So she used an anaesthetic that is usually reserved for when they have to actually cut out teeth (instead of just pulling them out) and, for the first time in my life, I actually didn't feel any pain at the dentist.

So now I have a huge hole and a few stitches in my jaw. It stopped bleeding a while ago, thankfully, and now I can eat, even if only liquid stuff - I hadn't had anything to eat when I went in, because I just expected to be there for ten minutes! Heavy-duty painkillers (which I uh, already had anyway) and a week of strong antibiotics. And I feel kind of like an ass for complaining about all this, what with what a guildmate is going through right now but. >.>

I plan to console myself today with skating, more skating, Johnny Weir picspams, Johnny Weir riding a yak on national television (YES FOR SERIOUS), and hopefully some skater fic which someone better be throwing my way. Okay?

The new Poets of the Fall album came out and managed to replace Lady Gaga as my most listened to for the moment. And I really have far too much love for this band, and I feel like throwing them at everybody I know and hoping that someone likes them.

Poets of the Fall is a band from Helsinki, Finland. All their music is in English. It's sort of... ambient rock, with about 50/50 rock and ballads. They made the theme song to Max Payne 2 and their music will also be in the upcoming Alan Wake. They have now released four albums and are still releasing through their own independent label. Their albums' copyright notices have funny hidden notes that tell you, for example, to remember to brush your teeth.

Poets' Youtube channel has a pretty good selection of their music in the form of videos. Give it a listen. If you like it, I can share more. Much more. :D

There may - should - be a proper update about my weekend later, but for now, have a meme.

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I will be mostly unavailable until Monday! In a few hours we're meeting up with fraught and phoenixdreaming at Helsinki-Vantaa airport, spending the day in Helsinki, and tomorrow we're braving hordes of teenagers to see Tokio Hotel at a signing and concert. There may be tweets (@dreamanother) in the meantime.

More coffee.

One day I will stop doing shit based on "I'll regret it if I don't", but today is not that day.

I wasn't QUITE crazy enough to go to Turin for the skating world champs, but instead we're going to Stockholm for Easter to see Lambiel, Plushenko & others in Stockholm Ice. We've been wanting to take a trip to Stockholm anyway. And by we I mean me and my sister. (We're not joined at the hip I swear. Quite.)

Also *takes a deep breath* TOKIO HOTEL AND SABRINA AND DOM IN TWO DAYS EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

*wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeze*

Okay, this sort of... outs the bad things I'm doing that I've been blaming my lovely guildmates about. Welll. Half the bad things. I don't care, this is too hilarious not to share.

Fic rec.

Snakes by romanshoes. WARNING: REAL-PERSON SLASH. Johnny Weir/Evan Lysacek. Completely R-rated. And fucking HILARIOUS. I was making spluttery noises the whole time and now my cheeks hurt from grinning.

Again, that fic involves REAL PEOPLE having teh gay sexings. Enter at your OWN PERIL.

(Yes, this is REALLY how bad influence Weir has on me. Um. well, worse, actually.)

...

CEILING GAGA IS WATCHING YOU.



(Look, I read fanfic - RPS at that - and the world didn't implode. Whowouldathought)

legomymalfoy and phoenixdreaming are turning me into a MONSTER, with kamara and fraught just egging them on. Please send help before I'm a completely lost cause.

I totaled less than five hours of sleep last night. Reason: Olympic figure skating, men's free program - medaling event. Yes, I stayed up practically all night to watch it live from the other side of the world. (No, I'm not sane, and I feel like a complete zombie now, but I'm happy.) The thought that is foremost in my mind still is this:

The medals went to the right people, but that the judges have apparently invented their own little invisible deduction system for being flamingly, unapologetically gay and effeminate annoys the shit out of me.

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Yes, Johnny, whether it's the D or the Q that's silent, we love you and you are a princess. <3 (I love that Twitter allowed me to tell him this, directly - and yes I deflowered my twitter account JUST FOR HIM - and I hope he reads all his @messages becuase there is so much love in there, he needs to hear it.)

Yesterday was a good day. In Guild Wars, I finished my ranger's tenth maxed title (Elonian wank vanquisher), reached People Know Me, and got the big gay bird. There were shirtless twins vacation photos from the Maldives. I sprung for some web hosting and a domain - otherdreams.net is now mine. There was some Doctor Who. And then I fattened up my toho image folder and organized it some - one subfolder done, four to go. -.-

Happy dream is happy? That is all.


Who and what you're looking for
Have you got a reason
You can if you wanna see
Touch I'm only human

I'm randomly curious.

Tell me the first adjective that comes to mind when you think about me! What's the first quality you (subconsciously) associate with me? Don't worry if it's a negative one. I'm a big girl, I can handle it, and I'm not going to be as childish as to get mad at you for something I asked for. :p

I love my guild.

I also love my darling boys.

And I love my new weird shirts, and I love the fact I have tomorrow off.

Love all around!


Wir sterben niemals aus
Ihr tragt uns bis in alle Zeit

I fail rather spectacularly with that meme, don't I?

I want it to be March. Like, now. March is going to be a happy month. Not only am I going to see Tokio Hotel in concert, I am going to see them with malvien, phoenixdreaming and fraught. The first is awesome but not so surprising - she's my sister, and lives with me - but the two others? are mah Internet friends and guildmates from Ireland and the Netherlands, respectively. Yes, they are flying all the way over here to the frozen north to come see Tokio Hotel with us. :DDDDDDDD I honestly don't know which I'm more excited about, the band or these girls! This is going to be epic fun.

Also noteworthy that most of this fandom? Is ten years younger than us. So we get to fight through and/or lord it over a bunch of teenagers at the gig... this'll be fun! As will the whole queuing up outside in March in Finland thing...